My maternal grandma and paternal grandma still healthily accompany us. My maternal grandma i could say we only see her at most three time a year because we always busy and is too inconvenient for us to visit her. We did not own a family car and so when we visit her by mrt we need to squeeze with other people and there was a long way of walks before reaching her house. We could not fetch a taxi because we have one extra people. My family had an common personality or thinking, that is lazy to go out and too much trouble to have outing. So we like to spend most of the time at home.
My paternal grandma lived with us, in the past entries i got talk a little about her. Let me introduce her to all of you. Since young she took care or me or rather said she partner with me. Since my school time table was not the same as my siblings. when i young i spent a lot time with my grandma, we go "marketing" together she always buy dim xin as breakfast for me. We watched the same tv programme. I like to share thing with her, i like to talk to her. That time she seemed to understand all i had said.
However one thing i always couldn't understand since i so call brought u by my grandma and why i couldn't speak well in her dialect. As i grew, i started to disagree to her principles and we talk lesser and there were so much gap. Sometime, i will be rude to tell her keep quiet so that i can concentrate doing my work. Sometime i know she wanted to talk t me however it the right time. As she always wanted to chat with me when i was busy doing my works. What made me pissed off is she is so soft that took too much effort for me to listen and she repeated so many time i still could not catch her. As people grow older, they get senile a bit so sometime couldn't understand what she trying to say. As people grow older, their stubborn is not a joking matter, they used " force to get you do or listen to their instructions. This is so truth that i see so much changes in my grandma. I do regret how i talk to her,i do regret how i unable to spend time with her. However, when thing happened again and again i still making the same mistakes.
So here i hope and wish that she stay healthily as long as possible. Happy New Year.
Share a nice video clip with all of the youngsters and don't regret in your life!!
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8:17 AM |
One request, one wish unable to fulfill @31/12
My uncle and his family lived in the same blk as us, and is only two floor above us. So since young we were close to our cousins. My both cousins one guy one girl are both elder than us. But to compare them, the guy one the best since he the oldest of all of us. He took good care and concern to us. He will help us whenever and whatever he could, like academic and stuffs in life. You can ask him to help you in repairing computer, printer and a lot more things. When he don't know how to solve, he will help you to find solutions.
However, we took him for granted, every time he make and request will will reject him. But most of the time is because we had a good reasons. And that day, last day of 2010, he wanted one of us to accompany him to countdown with him since our community centre have the countdown celebration and there is fireworks. Me and my brother rejected him when he came down to "invite us personally" by saying we wanted to watch a tv shows even through he never say out when he comes down but we know what he wanted.That tv shows ended up quite disappointing and i felt that we let him down as he always be there to help us up and we can't even accompany him to watch the fireworks. He ended up counting down at home.
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3:33 PM | Friday, December 31, 2010
Making Dumplings 13/12
On that day, i remembered clearly that i had a mc due to stomach flu. So i spent my whole day at home, it was monday since i was young monday is so call a "family day". Why because my dad will have a off day on that day, and same as my mum too. So if i remebered clearly, when i still studying in primary and secondary i would tried my best not to have any schedul on that day of the week. This is to spend time with my family, or rather said to spend time with my parents. To think back my siblings also d the same or may be most people plan lesser time on the start off the week.
To go home early we got an advantage, it to get to eat food cooked by our dad. Actually , my dad could cook better than my mum and he cooked most of the meals. So special on monday was that, he will cook different and more troublesome dish like "hor fun" "laksa" etc.
So that day, i was quite surprise that they decided to do dumplings. Dumplings is one of the troublesome food that chinese come out with. you will need to knead and dough the flour so that it will be opaque or "crystal" when you cooked. Then prepared the dumplings fillings, there was so much steps in since there always so much ingredients and you have to chop them in to "bits" and marinate it.
What fun is that when you trying to help and your parents let you and they teach you how to make the dumplings and criticize each other that their dumplings look badly or what so ever. When you are in this kind of mood, you will more willing to share about you problems, jokes and seek for advices. They were now like my friends.
I am sicks @ 12/12 i supposed to be working on that day but cause i felt unwell and took a two days MC. I don't fall sicks easily the last time i fall sick is very long time ago. i could still remember that time i fall sicks my brother took a really good care of me. He helped me with medicine and putting down my fever.
Me and my brother is always in a good term, we rarely would quarrel with each other. Embarrassed to say that until now we still like to play fist fighting. I glad to say that my brother do like to share things with me. I know quite a lot of his friends since young but now even thought i only get to see how his friends look like through a photo but it is better than nothing. when young we had been consistenly sharing our secrets with each other because both of us seems to have difficulty in sleeping. Therefore we would have heart to heart talk.
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3:20 PM |
Why when i help them they alway took advantages?
why when i helped my siblings they always took advantages of me. Some times i felt that i am their maid and not their elder sister. Issit because i always let them go, when they do the "wrong" thing and helped them to clear up the mess they made? I also don't know, i felt that i serving them because look that the small things in our lifestyles . After eatting, my parents will ask us to clear up our own mess and wash our own utensil. I also don't like to do it like my siblinngs, but i always helped them wash until i felt that they throw their plates to me to wash. They did not appreciate it, they will always ask me to take things for them. I felt like a maid, need to serve them.
what the worse partwas that when they asked you to so something, and they still not please with the result. They scolded you, shouted you but they never thought that i had spent my time trying seriously to help them. So trying to be a good person is always a difficult task. They i always complainig while helping them because i knew that in the end i don't really get their appreciation from them. Or i could say i pamper them too much just because they are younger.
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11:29 PM | Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Mum's Birthday @18/11
Is adult alway say words that betraying their will ? Yes i guess so. After "how" we celebrate our dad birthday, i feel that my mum is jealous about it. Cause she jealous that even we were busy about our school stuffs we still can remember our dad birthday.
In the past, when we are younger we tend to remember only one of their birthday and we will spend time or our little fortune on cards or cakes. Most of the time, we remember our dad's birthday because his' came first. Normally after that we neither really forgoten or we don't have much to hold another celebration.
Also, we like more to hold celebration for our dad, because most of the time we hold celebration during mother's day or her birthday we heard lectures on how we spending our money.
This happended this year too, but something changes we were really pissed off by her remarks. And we talked back that it take time for us to choose a present and cake. And finally it was accepted by her, haha what the most funny thing is she couldn't hide her feeling. The laughter at my house after a thunder storm was what i remember. After all it feel good that me and my family could stay together.
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1:12 PM | Saturday, December 18, 2010
I love crowded? @ 6/11
I love crowded ? i like to be among crowded? Well to say that there are two answers to it . YES i love crowd and NO depend with who. I love crowd, i like to be among people whom i knew and i like festive day where my family including cousins, uncles and aunties will all come together. I like my relatives come and visit us cause now days people are too busy with their works, if they manage to visit you that visit contain sincerity and efforts to sway off their other plans and come. Most of the youngsters don't like it they are more than happy if their relatives visit them and they not at home. I am opposite, i get angry because i am not at home and they visited us. One of the main reasons is many time our relatives only come once a years or after a few years then would get to see them. Even thought some times it is awkward but i would have that kind of excitement that "oh so that our cousin cousin" or " oh that our grandaunt grandson which also known to be " cousin"." It funny when you think that the next time you met him on the road and you still don't recognize it.
There was a visit happened on that day when i got to work and i always looking forwards for their visits. It was a visit by my cousin known as "ah shui gor gor" gor gor mean brother and his family. His daughter is very cute, she only about 2 years old but she very sensible and like to follow us where we go and what we do and then call out "aunt aunt i also wanted to do". it is quite cute to see a child like this and she is quite small in size however whenever you gave her something to eat then she will eat everything up and ask for more. I quite happy to see my cousin and his family.
That day i got to work so, i don't have the chance to play with my niece and have a good talk with them. However Chinese New Years coming soon then there sure have a lot visitors coming. looking forwards to that day.
That's OUR days:3
11:01 AM |
Bribe from my DAD @ 31 /10
A bribe from my dad it sound funny but it is true. And what my dad wanted was to let me shut up. Believe it or not. I had change over the years and i like talking more now. In the past, i was more quiet and very things i bottled up inside my heart. As i grew up, there were more things that went against my will and i would just let go and vent as i talking. People know me would know that i am not a quiet person, people don't know me will feel that i am too quiet. why that so ? Because i seemed to have quantity limited to me when i talk. i could continuously talking for an hour or more then i could have my whole day very quiet or just a few line of sentences when people ask me somethings.
Maybe it was just my character, i always like to do thing alone or that will lead me to a high concentration state. I choose to do things like, drawing, reading only Chinese novel, watch television, read magazine, manga and art and craft such as pottery making. I am not nerd or a quiet person even thought people see me as one. However to myself i just like to put myself in this kind of surrounding, environment that i can concentrate on doing something and forgot whatever unhappy things or review on what i had did recently. One of the things i enjoy doing.
However, when i started talking i can't stopped i need to finish whatever i had in my mind and this become a continuous talk for my parents. Sometime they could not take it so they got pissed off. But i do this on purpose because i remember my mum said this to me " you never really share my problems or anything with us" a few years ago. However even i could say out to them i will only said those that is not really important or i could handle it . Those that i really have problems, i will just handled myself. The problems i talking about would be just other normal problems other might faced and it might be problem faced as you growth up. Such as friends problems, school problems. These "problems" I talking about was just those teenage problems happened in the past.
I could not shared it was because i used to that kind of concept that they gave it to me. " I am the older, i should take good care about myself and my siblings and should not gave them problems. Because they were busy with my siblings." Also in the past, my parents were strict and protective, they would wanted to know who were my friends so i rather don't tell them that i had friends issue problems. That was also why i am closer to my grandmother. In the past, she my listener and adviser. However recently, or i would rather said i talk lesser about my problems as i grew up because she seemed unable to understand and it too difficult for me to explain.
But lucky to say i am "sensible" in nature, i would not do things that would worry my parents. So i would not gave myself any serious troubles.
