A bribe from my dad it sound funny but it is true. And what my dad wanted was to let me shut up. Believe it or not. I had change over the years and i like talking more now. In the past, i was more quiet and very things i bottled up inside my heart. As i grew up, there were more things that went against my will and i would just let go and vent as i talking. People know me would know that i am not a quiet person, people don't know me will feel that i am too quiet. why that so ? Because i seemed to have quantity limited to me when i talk. i could continuously talking for an hour or more then i could have my whole day very quiet or just a few line of sentences when people ask me somethings.
Maybe it was just my character, i always like to do thing alone or that will lead me to a high concentration state. I choose to do things like, drawing, reading only Chinese novel, watch television, read magazine, manga and art and craft such as pottery making. I am not nerd or a quiet person even thought people see me as one. However to myself i just like to put myself in this kind of surrounding, environment that i can concentrate on doing something and forgot whatever unhappy things or review on what i had did recently. One of the things i enjoy doing.
However, when i started talking i can't stopped i need to finish whatever i had in my mind and this become a continuous talk for my parents. Sometime they could not take it so they got pissed off. But i do this on purpose because i remember my mum said this to me " you never really share my problems or anything with us" a few years ago. However even i could say out to them i will only said those that is not really important or i could handle it . Those that i really have problems, i will just handled myself. The problems i talking about would be just other normal problems other might faced and it might be problem faced as you growth up. Such as friends problems, school problems. These "problems" I talking about was just those teenage problems happened in the past.
I could not shared it was because i used to that kind of concept that they gave it to me. " I am the older, i should take good care about myself and my siblings and should not gave them problems. Because they were busy with my siblings." Also in the past, my parents were strict and protective, they would wanted to know who were my friends so i rather don't tell them that i had friends issue problems. That was also why i am closer to my grandmother. In the past, she my listener and adviser. However recently, or i would rather said i talk lesser about my problems as i grew up because she seemed unable to understand and it too difficult for me to explain.
But lucky to say i am "sensible" in nature, i would not do things that would worry my parents. So i would not gave myself any serious troubles.
